Thankyou

It is you,
when i was covered in dirt,
you got down to where I was at.
You lifted my chin,
just one look at you,
and I was speechless.

Your very eyes went past my confused exterior,
and blazed right through to my very core.
They spoke grace to a disorderly messy soul.
They spoke love into a heart that didn't believe it was loved.
They spoke hope when this world offered none.

When your eyes met mine,
I was transfixed.
You graciously drew me out of the mud,
and stood me up tall again, clean and pure as snow.

I must remind myself that,
at every rising of the sun, your mercies are new.
Your promises blaze as true as they did centuries ago,
that today, now,
your offer of freedom still stands.

Thankyou Papa.
No greater love.

She is Free

(I wrote this with pretty much every girl I know in mind)

She’s the one who always sat alone,
She’s the one who got bullied.
She’s the one who everyone admired.
She’s the one leading the cool crowd
She’s the one who ‘has it all together’
She’s the one who works too hard.
She’s the awkward one,
the loud one,
the one who worries too much.
She’s the one who always believed the best in others,
but never in herself.
She’s the one who believed no one decent would ever love her,
And lowered her standards.
She’s the one, who wore her heart on her sleeve,
And so her heart broke too easily.
She’s the one who gave herself up for someone when she was but a child,
and from whom her very essence of femininity was stolen
She’s the one, who hurt others,
because at home that’s all she knew.
She’s the one who behind the door was hurting herself, when noone knew but her
This girl, she’s broken.
She’s the one He desperately wants to sit with.
She’s the one He gave himself up for,
His heart blazing with an eternal love for her.
She’s the one He put a great amount of thought into when He made her.
She’s the one He weeps over when he sees her hurting and listening to lies that only do anything other than destroy her ability to see the truth, light and love that flow from his very being.
That being the very thing He gave himself up for so that she could have.
She’s the one He sets free.
She’s the one in whom He sees past the exterior and into her heart.
She’s the one He’s smiling at.
She’s the one He looks at and says
‘check out my beauty of a princess, I’m so pleased with her’
She’s the one He loved first, and He sets a mighty high standard for his princesses.
A standard that is worth waiting for.
She’s the one who He says is worth ‘far more than rubies and pearls’
She’s the one He stretches his hand out to and welcomes in to His family and says ‘I love you, and you’re forgiven and free in my name!’
She’s the one He shows an unrelenting grace to.
She’s the one girl his heart longs to be attached to.
He is jealous
For you.
His love is furiously bright,
For you.
In his name,
you are free.

Circumstances aren't God, God is God, and God IS good.

"Often I have heard people say, "How good God is! We prayed that it would not rain for our church picnic, and look at the lovely weather!" Yes, God is good when He sends good weather. But God was also good when He allowed my sister, Betsie, to starve to death before my eyes in a German concentration camp. I remember one occasion when I was very discouraged there. Everything around us was dark, and there was darkness in my heart. I remember telling Betsie that I thought God had forgotten us. "No, Corrie," said Betsie, "He has not forgotten us. Remember His Word: "For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His steadfast love toward those who fear Him." Corrie concludes, "There is an ocean of God's love available - there is plenty for everyone. May God grant you never to doubt that victorious love - whatever the circumstances."
Corrie Ten Boom

This just brought to my attention how important it is to have faith in Jesus. A solid, deeply rooted faith in him that doesn't get shaken even in very dark situations. Our life isn't based around circumstances, sickness, pain or trials. Or based around what he does or doesn't do, or the products of him... It's based around God himself. Truth be told these hard things DO happen. God never promised a life exempt from suffering. But he DID offer 'an everpresent help IN trouble'
"God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble." Psalm 46:1
The way we feel about something is irrelevant really. Our perspective is irrelevant. Our expectations are irrelevant! If you feel God has let you down, could it just be that you had made up an expectation in your head about how he should be to keep you happy? That didn't come from him, that came from you, and you're the one who let yourself down! That doesn't leave you full and satisfied. God is the source of relevance. We need to draw our life out of his. Feelings always come and go. Highs and Lows, they come, they go. God isn't the one coming and going. It's us. Jesus said 'in this world you will face many trials and tribulations, but take heart! Because I have overcome the world!'

Lets have faith that even when his physical healings, his signs, his wonders don't seem to be physically evident, that he is STILL God. He is just as much God as he ever was. We may feel let down, but why is that?Could it just be that our expectation of what he should do, was out of line? Let's trust Jesus. Let's let him do some work inside, and develop a faith that isn't shaken by the surface things of life. He promised you, his dearest child, that he'd always love you. He promised you that he would always be there for you. He promised you that he would give you all you need. He promised you these things, not a trouble free life. Draw your life out of his heart, thats the only place worth drawing it from! Thats where you won't get let down. God doesn't look at the outward things, the physical outside things, he looks at the heart....

music

there's something so pure in music
there's something in it, that words cannot express,
it's as though our very heart jumps out of our chests and is encaptured,
in what words call a melody.

It awakens one to emotions,
they did not know they had,
and takes one on a journey,
to places of exquisite,
indescribable beauty;
of complete harmony...

his way is so much sweeter

in woolworths last night, I, feeling somewhat flat, was standing in the queue behind what seemed to be just your average old man. I thought just that, right up until the moment that it was his turn, he turned around and with a crooked smile, a few missing teeth and beaming face, said 'you go first, i always got taught to let the ladies go first' and all he held in his hand was one small item, and i sure had more than one! I hesitated, thinking it not fair for me to go infront! But something inside me knew he would love for me to go infront, that it would actually make HIS day. So i gratefully stepped in, It sparked up a little bit of joy again, It made me smile. It made me think of our Papa. and how he actually longs to be gracious to us, that he actually sent Jesus to us so that he could be grace to us, because he wanted us so very much! How it would make his day to be able to bless us. Like he actually gives us what we DONT deserve... He hides in the most unusual places, just waiting to bless us - as undeserving as we are, he loves us and would willingly sacrifice not just a spot in a queue, but his life, so that we could become a part of his family! He wanted us that much! What an awesome King we have. I love him. beyond words. His way of life is so much sweeter.

psalm 42: another version.

Father, as a runner ends his race in complete exhaustion,
pining for just a drop of fresh water.
So do i, at the end of my strength,
long for just a taste of your living water,
a small portion of your reality,
and thirst quenching joy and peace.
Papa, how long must I wait to feel assured again?

The filthy father of darkness is smiling I know.
as he whispers deception and lies into my ears asking,
'what have you done to lose the love and favour of your God?'
Knock after Knock,
It's wearing me down and out.
My soul i fear is on the verge of breaking
of being sucked into an all consuming
black hole,
never to see light again.

My heart is battered, worn out.
I remember - just days ago -
I was soaked,
drenched in your beauty and love.
I was full of greatfulness for you my King!

So God why now am I disheartened?
Why does my heart burn for some of you,
yet is unable to receive?

At the end of the day Papa, i will hope in you.
I remind myself, this time shall pass and i shall praise you again.

Let me ignite the flame.

Child - my little light. Imagine this - a candle sitting in a dark room, which hasn't yet been lit. It is incapable of giving light to anyone. It's dark. You are the candle. When i come into your life, you then have a flame - a light, burning within you - which is me. The room becomes bright, and by that light you see all things, and so do others for that matter.

Now a light is never hidden, Its purpose is to shine bright so other people can see. By it, it allows other people to see - truth. The light can be seen by anyone who is near to you, anyone around you will see the light.

Your view on your life and those around you, your view on your day to come - these things, imagine are your candle. When these things are good and strongly based upon me you will be full - full of my beautiful light, your flame will be burning strong - by my power. I am inhabited inside of you. Therefore your light is mega!

If your view on life and those around you, is bad, and your listening to the wrong voices, you will be like a candle with no flame. There is no use for that. You aren't shining bright, because i don't have a big enough part in your life.

Child, when you are full of me, and not rubbish, your life will be purely radiant as though a floodlight were filling you with light. Ask me to light your flame. I will.

Love, Papa.

Based around Luke 11:33-36

accomplishng the purpose.

Child, i don't want you to get confused about why I came into the world. I didn't come to stamp out the importance of my commandments, or to do away with them. I came to provide a way to accomplish my purpose for you - my treasured child. I came to ensure that my plan for you could be fulfilled, and in no way are my commandments cancelled out. They always will be my commandments, until the heavens and earth are done with and my plan has been 100% carried out. Do your best to keep in line with each and every one of them - i am here to help you.

And i tell you this to ensure you understand, although you may have my forgiveness in your mistakes, my word is still relevant and made to be obeyed. I made them because i love you, and as cliche as i sound, i want the best for you.. My word is your lifeline. I can only be your lifeline if you are plugged in to me.

I want to encourage you to continue in this race you have begun, with a determination noone can put out. (Why? because I AM your source) Remember you don't get into heaven and my kingdom because you've been 'good.' To get into heaven that way, you would need to be perfect. Unfortunately each one of us fail at that one. I came to accomplish the purpose of my word - my word alone wasn't going to be enough to save you. So i came to earth, to pay for your sin, to cancel out your debt, to ensure my purpose and promise would be carried out. I have your back child. I made a way when it seemed there was none. I give hope. If i did that for you, what else would i not do for you?

(based around matt 5:17-20)

and the hope sparked up

the hope in her heart,
was but a flicker of a flame,
struggling to stay bright.

she was losing her fire,
her zest for life
and her desire.

the pain of deception,
pierced a hole,
leaving her heart longing for loving connection.

the flickering flame in her heart,
got drenched with ice cold water.
her hope, now vulnerable, attempting to depart...

until a gentle voice whispered, 'you are MY daughter'
and the hope sparked up.

prick up those wee ears

Dearest child
Why aren't you listening to my voice? I've noticed often you aren't hearing what i'm saying, and it breaks my heart, to see you get hurt like this. You know what i say and want for you is only the best. It's a royal affair - you and me. Remember that. You are my child. I am a king, and therefore you are my strong prince, my beautiful princess. The more you listen and act on my voice, the closer you and I get, and the closer to royalty you become.

Child, my word is powerful, it's sharp. My word can cut through anything. Thats my love for you. I can fight your battle. I see what you're going through, but please can i remind you who it is that rules over you? And the immense power behind my name! I split seas so people could walk to safety. I calmed storms! I walked on water. I love you. I AM capable. I will cut through what you're facing, let me do it, i KNOW you can't do it, that is why i'm here for you, i will step in, as your papa, i will take your hand and pull you out of this battle zone and fight it. Addictions? i can break the strongholds, child, i still love you. Have you been discouraged? Let my word be a hand to push your chin up, let my word wrap you in a loving embrace, and let me be your Father. Perhaps you're dealing with insecurity? In me, you are beautiful, you are created, made fearfully and wonderfully. Child, whatever it is, i am here, my word is here, to guide you, to remind you who I AM. I will go into whatever it is, wherever you need me, i'll go in. Understand my word is to be obeyed child, because i love you. Not one person walking this earth couldn't benefit from my word, it's relevant to you.

Listen out for me, the echoes of my voice on your trip to work. You never know where i might be hiding, where i'm just busting to bless you! And most importantly, my voice is most often heard from the bible. What surprises hide in that book? What things am i waiting to show you in there? Open it up. I'm smiling just thinking about it.

Love you heaps my prince/princess,

Papa.

(based around hebrews 4:12-13)

P.S remember! prick up those wee ears of yours.