love.

I'm kinda learning..true love cannot be forced, nor rushed, If it is it will most likely be destroyed. It needs to be a mutual, even kind of a thing. A cat may love a mouse, all for the wrong reasons of course! It wants to eat it all up! The cat will pounce on the mouse, leaving the poor little creature stuck beneath it's paws, if, for a second that cat lifts it's paws off the mouse, i can guarantee little mousie is going to run, run, run far away and never go back!! Leaving the cat with nothing.

I'm thinking...relationships are just like that. If you pursue a person (boyfie, girlfie, hehe, friend, brother, sister.. anything) too hard, too much, too often, and it's all you doing the pursuing.. .... you've kinda turned into that cat, you've jumped on that poor person, and they have turned into prey, something you want something out of for your own satisfaction, and you're keeping them stuck beneath your paws..... and the moment you let them go, they're going to run away so far, for dear life!! and who knows if you'll ever see them again!! Shux, i can think of many times i've been that cat, and boy it makes me crriinnge.

So.. i think to myself... keep it cool. Don't panic. Just chill. Give it time. Wait. In time i'll see if they're meant to be a true friend mine. If they don't seem to care much, then perhaps it's not the best person to be wanting a friendship with. If they do seem interested, don't try rush the forces of nature, they'll happen, in due course... perhaps. perhaps not. God opens doors and shuts them for a reason. I feel priviliged that god cares so much that he would shut a door for me, he sees things we cannot see, he's protecting us for very good reason. It's also exciting when he opens up a door, as that's all for good reason too. When the hearts in the right place, that is a very exciting position to be in!

'and like i can't force the sun to rise, nor hasten summers start, neither should i rush my way into your heart' brooke fraser